I'm not ok but I'm ok and that's ok.

7/6/2014

Well… it’s been a wile… sorry for not writing but it’s been a crazy week!

Overview

1.  B-day was FANTASTIC!

2.    Struggles of the mission

3.   Something I learned this week

4.   Zone training

5.   Independence Day

6.   Me being real

7.   Closing

 1.       Where better to start then with my birthday!!! It was so great! Thank you; to all who sent their love!!! Thank you Grandma Awesome and Grandma Cool!!! Your love has been feeding us well!!! Last week our ward mission leader was in Greece with his wife and he forgot to get dinner sign-ups!!! But because of the great people you are we were just fine going out to eat! Then there were the awesome cards from people! Thank you! My parents sent me Blue Bell Ice Cream!!!! They’re the best!!! On the 4^th of July I got to share it with my zone and they all loved it. I think the reason I love ice cream so much is not only how yummy it is, but its 10x better when you share it with people! Dad sent me a vile of consecrated oil.  My family send party supplies AND my absolute favorite pair of sunglasses I have ever owned!!!! I love my aviators!!! Thank you so much mom and dad!  But then there was another box! A big box! We had dinner at my Cousin Rachel's home and when she showed it to me I couldn't believe it! On the label it said “Happy Birthday Elder Eldredge” and on the return address it said “David A. Bednar.” I was like…. WWWWHHHHHAAAATTTTTT!!!! No way! This has got to be a joke!!! Rachel just shrugged her shoulders. I was freaking out! In the box were goodies that I LOVE!!! White chocolate chip macadamia nut cookies, Snickers and Twix candy bars, cold cereal, Sour Patch Kids, “free creams and lotions” (Nacho Libre quote), all stuff I love and needed!!! There was no way Elder Bednar, a member of the Quorum of the 12 Apostles, knew all of this and sent it to me!!! This has to be a prank! Later I found out it was done by a UPS guy we know. Sheldon. He has taken the missionaries out often in the past and when he delivered the box to Rachel’s house that my parents sent for me and read on it “Happy Birthday Elder Eldredge” he asked if he could do something!!! What an awesome surprise!!! What a great day! Then that night we had an amazing lesson with a former investigator! Her name is Kathleen S. She has come to church many times in the past but hasn’t for awhile now. She has had lots of missionaries stop by and visit her and things just kept coming up that stopped her from pursuing baptism. But when we talked with her the spirit was so strong and we were able to invite her to be baptized when she comes to know that the things we teach are true and she accepted!!! She has a baptismal date for Aug. 23. She has been reading the Book of Mormon and has come to us with some great questions. I am so excited to continue to teach her and help her make the covenant of baptism so she may return to be with her Heavenly Father! So, yup, great day.

2.       And that started off one of the hardest weeks I think I’ve had yet! These past few weeks have been really hard on Elder Olson and I. We are doing our best, living the standard of excellence, doing everything in our power to be exactly obedient and our investigators disappear, our bodies are exausted,  we feel unmotivated and discouraged. I find joy and relief in serving our fellow missionaries. That is what I am living for right now. As I take care of the missionaries the Lord has given me, he strengthens me. I love it. But our investigators won’t respond! Our zone is doing amazing with teaching and inviting others to come unto Christ and we are left eating their dust!!! We are the zone leaders! We are supposed to be the examples!!! We are doing our best, but for some unknown reason, we are not getting the response we hope to be getting. We just keep trudging on, one step at a time, one door at a time, one smile at a time.

3.      This past week I spoke with a very wise man named Quinn. We talked about being real. So often we put these masks on to show that we are ok. As a man in this society, I am pressured to be superman, invincible, not a problem. But what I have found is it takes a real man to ask for help. This past week we gave a blessing to and Elder. He has always put on the face of strength. He smiles all the time and looks like he’s got this all under control. He has been out for 20 months so what could he possibly be struggling with!? He came to us and asked for a blessing of comfort. He felt he had a negative sprit hanging on him and he was looking for guidance and peace. What an incredible Elder. We need to be real! Drop your masks, take down your walls, live life and don’t be scared of who sees or who judges! The only people who matter already love you perfectly!!! As we open ourselves to people, that allows them to open themselves up and a bond is created!!! Our Heavenly Father will more often than not answer prayers and perform miracles threw others! This allows us to not only form a relationship with him, but allows us to love his children too! How beautiful is that!!! We also talked about pain and expressing it. Sometimes when someone is grieving they want to talk. But sometimes people, with good intentions, want to “rescue” or “save” that person. When someone is grieving there is very little you can do to stop the pain. But if you simply listen, be a warm body, be a shoulder to cry on, that is helping. I’m not ok, but I’m ok, and that’s ok.

4.       On Thursday the 3^rd we had zone training. That is where we get the whole zone together and Elder Olson and I give trainings on what President Brinkerhoff gave us at Mission Leadership Council. I love getting the zone together. These are some of my favorite people in the world! We have had some new members join us since the transfer so we introduced ourselves then told everybody what animal our companion would be and why. We had everything from a fish to a lion! I described Elder Olson as a church mouse, because he is quiet but he knows his scriptures. Then Elder Olson stood up and gave me one of the best complements I have ever received. He said I would be a wolf, because I am a born leader and my pack always comes first. I love that guy a lot. Elder Olson and I gave a training on burying our weapons of rebellion. We printed out and cut out litter paper swords for them to write on, then discussed the story of the Anti-Nephi-Lehis who buried their swords as a testimony of the promise they made to God. After discussing this story we invited each missionary to write down one of their weapons of rebellion and to come up and burry it in a trunk we borrowed from a member.  We invited each missionary to talk with their Lord and ask what it was that they could do to improve and what they could sacrifice or stop doing to become a better servant in his vineyard. It was incredible watching these missionaries, my brothers and sisters, all in prayer asking and looking for ways to improve. I love these missionaries.

5.       The 4^th of July was amazing. I’m going to brag about myself here for a little. If you don’t want to hear it, skip to the next paragraph. Elder Olson and I set up an awesome Independence Day celebration for our zone. We got together and had a water gun capture the flag game were we all ended up soaking wet with big smiles on our faces. Then we changed into missionary cloths and went to a baseball game! We were able to acquire some tickets from an amazing member and had a blast sitting in the stands cheering on the Idaho Falls Chuckers who won 10 to 4 against the Ogden Raptors. It made me think of my dad and I really wanted to have him there watching the game with me.  While at the game I ran into Sydnee Lasswell!!!!! (Only it’s not Lasswell anymore… idk what it is now!) It was so great to see her! We then gathered up some supplies and headed to watch the fireworks! I led them a few blocks away to a member who had a spot reserved for us. I brought my Blue Bell ice cream and served it up just in time to watch an amazing 30 min display of pyro-beauty! It was fantastic. Then we packed up, walked to our cars, battled the crazy amounts of people that were spilling out of Idaho Falls, and made it home safely.  Success.

6.       This past Sunday was hard, I don’t know why, but my emotions were very close to the surface. (Again, this is me being real with you, I’m not looking to be saved, and I’m just sayin how it is.) It was fast and testimony meeting and we as missionaries get the opportunity to bear our testimonies each month in each ward we attend. I got up and testified of the power of the priesthood. This past week we gave 6 blessings to missionaries and members who needed one.  The power of the Priesthood is real. I know it is. I have seen it in action and I have felt it move threw me. I know it is real. Then, sitting in the Rose Park chapel I had a memory of Madie flash across my mind. It was a simple act. I gently kissed her forehead. Emotion swept over me as my body and soul missed her. I let a few tears fall and had no shame. I love you Madeline Rose.

7.       This was my week. A mission is hard. Very hard. Lots of missionaries go home before their time is up. It’s tough. But it’s also one of the best things you can do for yourself, for others, and for the Lord. If you are thinking of going on a mission, start preparing now. Spend some time way from your home. Go get a job out of city or go on a trip or something. Learn how to stand on the two feet God gave you.  Build your testimony. Ask the hard questions.  Is this for real? Did Joseph Smith really see God the Father and Jesus Christ? Is the Book of Mormon true? Can I stand and bear testimony that I know these things? If you ask these with a sincere heart, with real intent, having faith in Christ, He will manifest the truth of it unto you by the power of the Holy Ghost. And by the Holy Ghost ye may know the truth of all things.  Moroni 10:4-5.

I love you.

Elder Eldredge